get me out of this place.
I think I have discovered the true reason why I have been so unhappy lately... Actually, I've known it all along. I just finally have come to terms with it and can openly discuss it. My home life is DEFINITELY below average. No joke. It's a flipping battle to be able to do anything nowadays. Por ejemplo! Tonight is the Peer Counseling party, which really is just us getting together, making/bringing our own food, and wrapping the presents that WE bought. Partayyy. (sarcasm) Anyhow, it's MANDATORY. My parents don't understand/believe that. They decided that FIRST they would give me crap for about thirty minutes, yelling at me for losing the directions (which are obviously irreplacable) and making fun of Peer Counseling. "OMG, if you're late, will you have to bring doughnuts?" (You have to be a PC to understand.) Then, once they finally decide they'll take me, my dad says I have to "do stuff around the house." "What kind of stuff, dad?" "STUFF. And be able to tell me exactly what stuff you did." Pardon my french but doubleyou tee ah-chay. It's not like it's a make-out party or some show I've been dying to go to (which was last night, and dad didn't trust me enough to let me go to that one)- no, it is a MANDATORY party. Whenever they make you come to a party, you know it's just going to be off the hook, yeah? I'm not making fun of PC, because I love it to death, but dad does not pick his battles well.
People always ask why I'm in such a rush to get off to college. Well, it's partly because I've been working my butt off to get into a good one. (PS. ALECKS GOT INTO BROWN EARLY ADMISSION. YAY ALEXXX!!) But maybe it's more so I can be FREE again. Brown was such a terrible taste of freedom... I could eat dinner whenever the heck I wanted. I went to shows whenever I wanted. Oh, I wanted to go to the mall? I just rounded up some friends and walked down. No curfew. No rules. I've been craving it back since July 26th, the day I left that amazing place. A year and a half until college, baby. A year and a half.
Well, I better go find STUFF to do before dad doesn't let me go to the party!! Good grief.
PS. Church was amazing today. I could feel the love in the air- not even joking. Wanida and the Band; Matt Romero. I was hoping for a nice xanga entry for the first in quite a while. Thanks DAD. >:o
